• Hello. Life’s been good to me. Life’s been difficult in recent years. Today I begin a’new. I am wanting stillness, peace, and a quiet mind. I want to be quiet, sensitive and impeccable. May desperation fuel my blessed success.
    Swaha ~ Sanskrit meaning ‘I throw myself into the sacred fire that purifies the human dilemma so that we can know and be the Love and the Light that is our birthright.
    If you want to join me in beginning a’new, I welcome you with outstretched arms full of love and support.
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  • February 1, 2016 /  Blessing, Celebration, LIFE, Love, Relationship, Self Honor, YOGA

    I’m all about work now. And Love. Are they the same thing? Absolutely!

    I’ve been on sabbaKrsna Govindatical since Spring 2015. I’ve declared (to myself) that February 1, 2016 marks me getting back to work. Lots of face-lifting has taken place, and more to come. I hope you will stay tuned.

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  • January 6, 2016 /  Blessing, LIFE, YOGA

    “Carry On Wayward Son” by Kansas

    *words changed by sb to fit, 1/6/2016
    *salmon colored words most important (for me)

    Carry on my wayward daughter

    There’ll be peace when you are done

    Lay your weary head to rest

    Don’t you suffer no more

    Ah

    Once I rose above the noise and confusion

    just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion

    I was soaring ever higher, but I flew too high

    Though my eyes could see I still was a blind woman

    Though my mind could think I still was a mad woman

    I hear the voices when I’m dreaming,

    I can hear them say

    Carry on my wayward daughter,

    There’ll be peace when you are done

    Lay your weary head to rest

    Don’t you suffer no more

    Masquerading as a woman with a reason

    My charade is the event of the season

    And if I claim to be a wise woman,

    Well, it surely means that I don’t know

    On a stormy sea of moving mind/emotion

    Tossed about, I’m like a ship on the ocean

    I set a course for winds of fortune,

    But I hear the voices say

    Carry on my wayward daughter

    There’ll be peace when you are done

    Lay your weary head to rest

    Don’t you suffer no more no!

    Carry on,

    You will always remember

    Carry on,

    Nothing equals the Splendor

    Now your life’s no longer empty

    Surely heaven waits for you

    Carry on my wayward daughter

    There’ll be peace when you are done

    Lay your weary head to rest

    Don’t you suffer,

    Don’t you suffer no more,

    No more!

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  • January 5, 2016 /  Blessing, LIFE, YOGA

    To My Very Own HeartBlue Snowflake

    January 1, 2016

    May all hearts be continuously nourished in and by Divine Love and Grace.

    May our associations with one another be always fragrant & blessed.

    May we shine ever brighter and deeper simply because we are loved and adored.

    May we always feel and know that.

    May I be able to maintain an overall steady state of wellness and balance.

    May I finally experience myself as a good mother.

    May I feel steady, strong and fluid in this role.

    May I be able to maintain an overall steady state of wellness and balance.

    May I feel gorgeous and worthy always of loving, being and contributing.

    May I feel gorgeous and worthy always of receiving love and adoration.

    May I be able to maintain an overall steady state of wellness and balance (third times a charm)

    May I be wise, intelligent and discerning as I work on figuring out my contribution that simultaneously makes a living for myself & my family.

    May Sierra (my daughter) and my parents feel proud of me one day.

    May the mystery that is the marriage of Self Effort & Grace in my life, in Sierra’s life, and in the lives of All ~ Have qualities like Fresh Ash:

    Soft, Light, White, Warm; 

       Infinite (grains of ash) representing Infinite Possibility. 

    Every Moment.

       Blessed by The Heart, Blessed by The Soul 

       That is That Which Loves & Adores Us.

    May all living beings experience Love, Safety and Peace.

    I Love You Life.

    Thank You, for SO MUCH may it simply suffice as it is.

    Dhanyavad (thank you, or gratitude in Hindi)

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  • December 18, 2015 /  LIFE, YOGA

    I spent most of the Fall in bed. I pretty much checked out and sent everybody who loves me away. Lost 20 lbs, which I’m excited about though my daughter said I was way too skinny, especially at my lowest (108 lbs.). I’ve been a food-acholic my whole life so being super thin is a dream come true. I’ve been eating healthfully for 5 weeks now (& exercising) and love my newfound body which is hovering between 111 – 114 lbs. (I’m 5’4″ tall). I haven’t been this light since high school. Yipee!

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    I wasn’t intentionally losing weight. I simply lost my appetite which translated into eating very little on a daily basis for quite some time.

    My body; specifically my appetite is very different now than it’s ever been. I seem to have cured the food addiction situation, which feels like Freedom, Glory and the possibility of eternal delicious food forevermore!

    Consider this your Invitation to celebrate with me.

    MmmDog

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  • August 12, 2015 /  LIFE, YOGA

    The more serious days of my Retreat have come to a close. I’ve had a glorious four weeks. I had several mandates that were so helpful I want to share them. #5 is perhaps the most important.

    1   NURTURE: read, rest when tired, exercise, eat well, take baths, swim, do what I want, don’t do what I don’t want to do just because I think I should or need to (my house got pretty messy at one point!)

    2   LISTEN: remain quiet (in mind) while listening, watch out for narcissistic temptations to interrupt and don’t, unless I need to.

    3   SPEAK MINIMALLY, CAREFULLY & SIMPLY: no social plans & minimal conversations.

    4   PACE: keep it slow and steady, all the time. Includes things like driving, speaking, planning ahead to eliminate need to rush, exercise, no time commitments when not necessary, etc.

    5   MIND: Do not respond to my mind’s many firings of thought, idea, and impulse. Ideally, do not respond ever to such things. Rather, make choices to act from a deeper place where impulses naturally contain heart (caring for all living beings and our planet), wisdom, discernment, intuition and clarity.

    I’m like all brand new. And though I need to get back to work now, these mandates seem to have become natural impulses that require delicate care and constant attention. For me, Summer Retreat 2015 is the beginning of a life that is held in Rest, Relaxation, Love of Life, Beauty & That which is Natural.Reaching In, Reaching Out

     

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  • July 25, 2015 /  YOGA

    Last night I started my blog saying for the first time yesterday I think I actually relaxed. Then I went into the It Just Is experience that I had yesterday. After I posted I realized I didn’t expound on the relaxed thing. I’ve been trekking the spiritual path Hindu~esq style for 32 years. I’ve read a lot. And I’ve had numerous spiritual experiences. Some of the catch words that I’ve liked that try to describe what we are ‘seeking’ include stillness, emptiness and peace. And some of the words I’ve liked that describe the spiritual experience include beauty, intelligence, humility and awe. But yesterday I was having an experience that was very new and not spiritual. I was simply so relaxed. And it felt right. It seemed like one important point of spiritual endeavor.

    I am updating this post weeks later and I can report with pleasure and gratitude that I am still very pretty relaxed most of the time. Hurray! This is so very good.

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  • July 25, 2015 /  LIFE, YOGA

    I was trying to clean my home top to bottom for my folk’s visit in late June. I also had planned a 3 week visit to be with my Guru in July/Aug. I could not get my house clean. Oh, I did the minimal so my folks would be comfortable for their stay. And a voice inside my head said to me you have no business spending 3 weeks with your Guru when you can’t even get your own home clean. I cancelled my flight, and here I am retreating house unclean.

    A clean home is a relative thing. I’d like to spend time cleaning as a spiritual practice, or a gesture to clean my mind. Other things have taken priority thus far, but I would like to get to it soon.

    I love the idea of a clean mind. Having a mind that thinks mostly positive, supportive thoughts. A mind that doesn’t complain or gossip (unless it serves a higher purpose). Being critical or giving constructive feedback gently with sensitivity is all good. I’m not talking about being a clean mind, spiritual or goody goody flake. I am talking about a mind that is very quiet, a mind within the body of a person who naturally beholds the glory of life, the beauty of nature and feel grateful; and be humble. This is the kind of mind I want to have. Don’t you?Clayface

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  • July 18, 2015 /  YOGA

    I’ve been in a mind-blowing relationship since late April. We live about 14 minutes apart. I have not been to his home until last night. We’ve been primarily hanging out in my home, which he told me is the nicer place/space. I’ve been poking him to invite me to his home, and he has good reasons why that hasn’t happened thus far.

    A few days ago I became very angry because I rode my bike so very close to his house and he met me somewhere else. The anger incident was interesting for me inside, the way I watched it and didn’t respond to the mind’s various impulses. I simply said ‘I didn’t want to meet you here’ and rode away. However, it sucked for me when I learned how much it affected him. He told me he was disappointed because he had several deeply loving and lovely ideas for how we would spend our short a.m. time together. But it hurt him very much, also. And that hurt me very much, also.

    I dropped my desire to see his home. My love for this Man is all-pervading and I would do anything if I could never hurt him again. Last night we went to his home as it was naturally part of our evening meanderings. He wondered ‘what do you think?’ i think because he had a lot of things, more than fit comfortably in the space; and other reasons. I wasn’t thinking. I was just so happy to behold some of his beautiful things, included a painting that he painted.

    Perhaps the highlight was a cat he’s been caring for for some time. This cat’s coloring floored me: white, tan, beige, brown ~ soft marble. But the way he held her in his arms, and the way she relaxed and purred. The site was beauty, pure raw and rare. The way the cat relaxed and purred, that’s how I feel around him. And recently, that’s how I feel often whether we’re together or not.

    This man loves me. It’s been a pretty all-pervasive experience. It feels like Krsna loving me exactly how I need to be loved in order to be truly free or liberated. Since I’ve been hanging out with this Man, my mind has been blown over and over again. This is the goal of all Yoga practices and spiritual endeavors. To have our mind relaxed to such extent that thinking (pretty much) ceases. Alas, hallelujah.

    now I bow my head and beg Lord Vishnu for Sustaining Grace. Because this kind of experience could last, and/or it could wane.

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  • June 30, 2015 /  YOGA

    I had such a good day yesterday. My friend Hillary came over and video-taped me being interviewed by my life coach Gopita. The interview is for my work as a hatha yoga & meditation instructor, and for my offering of kirtan. It seemed like my whole life since I decided to do the interview has been all about it, and although it unfolded so differently than expected and planned it still seemed to go well and I think I’m going to have some really good footage and previews so people can see who I am and what I offer as an instructor of Yoga. Yea!

    I think the day went so well because of several factors. First, I had 5 hours from waking ’til my video person arrived which gave me ample time to prepare for the day. I woke up alone and spent those 5 hours by myself entirely, so it was like a waking, walking, flowing meditation filled with picking and arranging flowers, making altars, preparing food, cleaning and dressing myself appropriately, and such. Second, I was in such good company with my sister-friend Hillary and my personal coach, Gopita, both whom know so much about me and love me anyways.

    I want to show you how sweet the day was, so here’s a few pics that hopefully convey the general mood.

    After the Interview

    After the Interview

    Appreciating Hillary

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