• Hello. Life’s been good to me. Life’s been difficult in recent years. Today I begin a’new. I am wanting stillness, peace, and a quiet mind. I want to be quiet, sensitive and impeccable. May desperation fuel my blessed success.
    Swaha ~ Sanskrit meaning ‘I throw myself into the sacred fire that purifies the human dilemma so that we can know and be the Love and the Light that is our birthright.
    If you want to join me in beginning a’new, I welcome you with outstretched arms full of love and support.
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  • February 1, 2016 /  Blessing, Celebration, LIFE, Love, Relationship, Self Honor, YOGA

    I’m all about work now. And Love. Are they the same thing? Absolutely!

    I’ve been on sabbaKrsna Govindatical since Spring 2015. I’ve declared (to myself) that February 1, 2016 marks me getting back to work. Lots of face-lifting has taken place, and more to come. I hope you will stay tuned.

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  • January 6, 2016 /  Blessing, LIFE, YOGA

    “Carry On Wayward Son” by Kansas

    *words changed by sb to fit, 1/6/2016
    *salmon colored words most important (for me)

    Carry on my wayward daughter

    There’ll be peace when you are done

    Lay your weary head to rest

    Don’t you suffer no more

    Ah

    Once I rose above the noise and confusion

    just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion

    I was soaring ever higher, but I flew too high

    Though my eyes could see I still was a blind woman

    Though my mind could think I still was a mad woman

    I hear the voices when I’m dreaming,

    I can hear them say

    Carry on my wayward daughter,

    There’ll be peace when you are done

    Lay your weary head to rest

    Don’t you suffer no more

    Masquerading as a woman with a reason

    My charade is the event of the season

    And if I claim to be a wise woman,

    Well, it surely means that I don’t know

    On a stormy sea of moving mind/emotion

    Tossed about, I’m like a ship on the ocean

    I set a course for winds of fortune,

    But I hear the voices say

    Carry on my wayward daughter

    There’ll be peace when you are done

    Lay your weary head to rest

    Don’t you suffer no more no!

    Carry on,

    You will always remember

    Carry on,

    Nothing equals the Splendor

    Now your life’s no longer empty

    Surely heaven waits for you

    Carry on my wayward daughter

    There’ll be peace when you are done

    Lay your weary head to rest

    Don’t you suffer,

    Don’t you suffer no more,

    No more!

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  • January 5, 2016 /  Blessing, LIFE, YOGA

    To My Very Own HeartBlue Snowflake

    January 1, 2016

    May all hearts be continuously nourished in and by Divine Love and Grace.

    May our associations with one another be always fragrant & blessed.

    May we shine ever brighter and deeper simply because we are loved and adored.

    May we always feel and know that.

    May I be able to maintain an overall steady state of wellness and balance.

    May I finally experience myself as a good mother.

    May I feel steady, strong and fluid in this role.

    May I be able to maintain an overall steady state of wellness and balance.

    May I feel gorgeous and worthy always of loving, being and contributing.

    May I feel gorgeous and worthy always of receiving love and adoration.

    May I be able to maintain an overall steady state of wellness and balance (third times a charm)

    May I be wise, intelligent and discerning as I work on figuring out my contribution that simultaneously makes a living for myself & my family.

    May Sierra (my daughter) and my parents feel proud of me one day.

    May the mystery that is the marriage of Self Effort & Grace in my life, in Sierra’s life, and in the lives of All ~ Have qualities like Fresh Ash:

    Soft, Light, White, Warm; 

       Infinite (grains of ash) representing Infinite Possibility. 

    Every Moment.

       Blessed by The Heart, Blessed by The Soul 

       That is That Which Loves & Adores Us.

    May all living beings experience Love, Safety and Peace.

    I Love You Life.

    Thank You, for SO MUCH may it simply suffice as it is.

    Dhanyavad (thank you, or gratitude in Hindi)

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  • December 18, 2015 /  LIFE, YOGA

    I spent most of the Fall in bed. I pretty much checked out and sent everybody who loves me away. Lost 20 lbs, which I’m excited about though my daughter said I was way too skinny, especially at my lowest (108 lbs.). I’ve been a food-acholic my whole life so being super thin is a dream come true. I’ve been eating healthfully for 5 weeks now (& exercising) and love my newfound body which is hovering between 111 – 114 lbs. (I’m 5’4″ tall). I haven’t been this light since high school. Yipee!

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    I wasn’t intentionally losing weight. I simply lost my appetite which translated into eating very little on a daily basis for quite some time.

    My body; specifically my appetite is very different now than it’s ever been. I seem to have cured the food addiction situation, which feels like Freedom, Glory and the possibility of eternal delicious food forevermore!

    Consider this your Invitation to celebrate with me.

    MmmDog

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  • August 12, 2015 /  LIFE, YOGA

    The more serious days of my Retreat have come to a close. I’ve had a glorious four weeks. I had several mandates that were so helpful I want to share them. #5 is perhaps the most important.

    1   NURTURE: read, rest when tired, exercise, eat well, take baths, swim, do what I want, don’t do what I don’t want to do just because I think I should or need to (my house got pretty messy at one point!)

    2   LISTEN: remain quiet (in mind) while listening, watch out for narcissistic temptations to interrupt and don’t, unless I need to.

    3   SPEAK MINIMALLY, CAREFULLY & SIMPLY: no social plans & minimal conversations.

    4   PACE: keep it slow and steady, all the time. Includes things like driving, speaking, planning ahead to eliminate need to rush, exercise, no time commitments when not necessary, etc.

    5   MIND: Do not respond to my mind’s many firings of thought, idea, and impulse. Ideally, do not respond ever to such things. Rather, make choices to act from a deeper place where impulses naturally contain heart (caring for all living beings and our planet), wisdom, discernment, intuition and clarity.

    I’m like all brand new. And though I need to get back to work now, these mandates seem to have become natural impulses that require delicate care and constant attention. For me, Summer Retreat 2015 is the beginning of a life that is held in Rest, Relaxation, Love of Life, Beauty & That which is Natural.Reaching In, Reaching Out

     

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  • August 8, 2015 /  LIFE

    I lost my gray down jacket a few months ago. I loved that jacket. My sister told me geese are tortured  in order to get the down feathers. I hoped to never buy a new down item again. But at Costco a few weeks ago they had the perfect down vest for me and I purchased it. One week ago they had a perfect down jacket (to replace my lost one) and a large sheepskin floor rug for a great price. I bought both.

    When I returned home I realized that at least one sheep, if not several, had to be killed in order to make the sheepskin. And I was struggling with my desire and attraction to the two new down jackets vs. my intent to not purchase down ever again. I almost decided to keep the down vest and jacket. Until I got clear that being kind and loving to all living creatures and letting them live and be as they are naturally is significantly more important to me than the look, fashion or comfort a nice light down jacket provides. (yup, those are Ugg boots in the pic that I purchased towards the end of my vegetarian years in the late 1990’s. I was ignorant. I aim now to be educated).

    The sheepskin is in my trunk along with the down vest for next time I visit Costco. The down jacket is in Yellowstone w/my daughter. Thank you Costco for having a very generous and accommodating return policy. I am grateful.


    What it takes to make a feathered down item: tortured geese.

  • July 25, 2015 /  YOGA

    Last night I started my blog saying for the first time yesterday I think I actually relaxed. Then I went into the It Just Is experience that I had yesterday. After I posted I realized I didn’t expound on the relaxed thing. I’ve been trekking the spiritual path Hindu~esq style for 32 years. I’ve read a lot. And I’ve had numerous spiritual experiences. Some of the catch words that I’ve liked that try to describe what we are ‘seeking’ include stillness, emptiness and peace. And some of the words I’ve liked that describe the spiritual experience include beauty, intelligence, humility and awe. But yesterday I was having an experience that was very new and not spiritual. I was simply so relaxed. And it felt right. It seemed like one important point of spiritual endeavor.

    I am updating this post weeks later and I can report with pleasure and gratitude that I am still very pretty relaxed most of the time. Hurray! This is so very good.

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  • July 25, 2015 /  LIFE, YOGA

    I was trying to clean my home top to bottom for my folk’s visit in late June. I also had planned a 3 week visit to be with my Guru in July/Aug. I could not get my house clean. Oh, I did the minimal so my folks would be comfortable for their stay. And a voice inside my head said to me you have no business spending 3 weeks with your Guru when you can’t even get your own home clean. I cancelled my flight, and here I am retreating house unclean.

    A clean home is a relative thing. I’d like to spend time cleaning as a spiritual practice, or a gesture to clean my mind. Other things have taken priority thus far, but I would like to get to it soon.

    I love the idea of a clean mind. Having a mind that thinks mostly positive, supportive thoughts. A mind that doesn’t complain or gossip (unless it serves a higher purpose). Being critical or giving constructive feedback gently with sensitivity is all good. I’m not talking about being a clean mind, spiritual or goody goody flake. I am talking about a mind that is very quiet, a mind within the body of a person who naturally beholds the glory of life, the beauty of nature and feel grateful; and be humble. This is the kind of mind I want to have. Don’t you?Clayface

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  • July 24, 2015 /  LIFE

    Today feels like the first day of my personally declared Retreat that began on July 11th. I live on 2 acres in a lovely converted barn. My landlords inhabit the main house on property. They are away for 3 weeks and I now have utter peace, beauty and privacy in my home environment.

    If you are a Materialist:  I am feeling oh so lucky and grateful.

    If you are a Spiritual Type:  I am feeling blessed.

    *…i will write and share more later. For now I get to do some gardening chores, and give strokes and love to my landlord’s cat, a regal Egyptian looking queen of sorts.

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